.:Once Long Ago:.

Once long ago this day meant something
This time said something
And words spoke something
Days past and times lost
Seasons flown and years gone
Reminiscing about how it used to be
And smiling at resurfacing memories
Once long ago…

You were a friend lost....a friend who was true and remebered, a friend who was helpful and blessed, a friend who was supportive and giving, a friend who was advicing and listened, a friend who always wished for my best and showed me paths righteous.

A freiend found. Loyalty your name, a friend forever of eternity.

I want an attachment, an addiction...

To devote my lonesome time to and occupy my mind with...

To surrender my thoughts to and fill my imaginations with....

I want an attachment, an addiction...

.: When life abandons and souls depart, colors still shine only memories apart:.

.:Marionette:.

I am a puppet, a marionette
Controlled and played
By societies’ proprieties
And judging eyes
By people’s lies
And life’s cries

The proprieties of the society
Teaching me the prerequisite
Asking me to act in accordance
Requesting me to speak with etiquette
Asking me to give an appearance of acceptance
And yet following the contrary of their demands
Whispering gossip and fueling rumor
Raising scandals and disrespecting with humor
Creating trouble and enjoying the furor
Before asking me to be someone who I am not
Set an example I would follow
Rather than teaching me your flaws
And thrusting me on a path shallow

The judging sights
Viewing me keenly, scrutinizing
With interest in faults be exhibited and acts inappropriate
To later spark a story and flame into flares
To exhume the buried and strum on dead bones
To splay my character with grime and enjoy doing it
Those judging sights not worth a sight
For their actions smudge their own name
Owning no right to judge me
Splaying filth on their own entities
Before eyeing and pointing me
Look within, you wouldn’t want it
So act the same
Don’t go and blacken my name

People’s lies
Filling me ears full
Trying to exhibit life’s false truths
Showing me lights dull
And filling me with falsehoods
Wanting to ruin my outlook
Making me see a lying book
Wanting to make me believe in those lies
And compose me of fake compositions
Before trying to mist my perspective with sham
See who I am
I am not weak to believe in your false truths
Will never change myself for your falsehoods

Life’s cries
Loud and condemning
Inevitable and challenging
Forcing to hide in a burrow
Causing profound sorrow
Causing feelings ill
And halting life still
Block out the cries and drown the misery
Choose to listen to melodies and be afloat
Misery cries only when you let it
Life will sing sweet if you believe it

I am a puppet, a marionette no longer
Controlled and played no further
By societies’ improper proprieties
And unjust judging eyes
By the people’s unaffecting lies
And life’s blockable cries

.:Open Up:.

You keep yourself closeted
Away from every penetrating sight
Away from every perceiving eye
No matter how shallow you seem to be
You are as deep
No matter how hard you seem to be
You are as soft
And no matter how harsh you seem to be
You are as gentle

The past may have compelled you to draw yourself within
Taught you not to trust or let people in
It may have given you distaste for some
But time reveals more as it comes

Not everyone lives alike, people act different
What your past held may not be what your future reveals
Thus try and love each one separately instead of generalizing them into one
And you will see how beautiful every person shines beneath

Open up your soul
Those whom you condemn are far worthier
Open up your eyes
Those whom you loathe are more than shallow
Open up your heart
Those whom you hurt are more deserving
Open up
For you may never get another chance
And when time is scare you will realize how wrong you were
That those who you shunned away from
Were the ones who loved you the most.

.:New Beginnings:.

I tread on a journey towards an unknown destination
Along the way I came across cleared paths and bright days,
Cheery sights and wonderful dreams,
Vibrant flowers and strong foundations

And then I came upon rough roads and battered paths
The rain stabbed me and made my path even worse to walk on
I stumbled and fell but then I got back up and continued walking
I walked through the pain and hurdles
I walked through the screaming weather
I came upon a hill

Blinded by the mist of the pouring rain
I strived and drove myself forward to reach the top
The rain challenged me, the rubble slipped
But I kept on moving forward.
I went on staggering upward
Through the haze and downpour
Over the piercing rocks and slipping mud
And I prevailed,
I reached the top.

The rain subsided and the damp dried
The sun shone and I found myself at my destination
Where I stood was where I had begun
My journey had ended with my beginning.
However this would be a new beginning
For the past journey had made me stronger

Every ending is a commencement of new beginnings
Every destination is the beginning of another journey
Just as my destination has brought me upon a new journey
And my ending has ended with a new beginning.

.:Glowing Dead:.

Autumn greets me, dry and broken.
I pick up a leaf, one among the million that cluster my path,
A beautiful corpse
Deprived of spirit yet flaring with color
Dead yet exuding beauty

I trace the veins and touch the crippled paper
It is delicate and fragile yet it remains intact
I look at it closely, trying to memorize its intricate design
And then I crush it
It breaks in a million shards

The burning flame now burnt
The dead now disposed of
I open my hands to let the breeze carry its ashes

Magnificence sings in the lifeless
Splendor dances in the dead
And flaming colors paint the autumn

.:Fading Shadows:.

All I ever thought about was
How I stood drenched in the rain
Soaked by the heaving spears
And struck by lightning
Frightened by the deafening thunder
And blinded by the ghastly haze

All I ever thought about was
How dark the night was
Afraid of the eternal ominous black
And creepy lurking shadows
Alarmed by whistles in the silence
And echoing hollow whispers

All I ever thought about was how awful it all was
Never realizing
That after the rain the rainbow always shines
Breaking the gray clouds and lighting hope
Clear, colorful, never ending and treasured

That after every night the sun always rises
Disintegrating the shadows and brightening the dark
Brilliant, illuminating, eternal and cherished

That after every tear there comes a smile
And after every dark there comes light
That after all sorrows there comes a while
Where you cherish the drenching rains and dark nights
Fading shadows

.:Casket:.

Soul
A casket buried beneath mounds of sands
Treasured and owned
Fortune of secrets and emotions
Of aches and pain
Of joy and delight
Of hardships and worries
Of ecstasy and bliss
Until it’s sought and the lock shattered

The casket gaping
A sea of secrets swimming
Open to hoard
Bare to seize
Memories known
Sentiments shown
Smiles disclosed
Frowns exposed
Courage stolen
Fears spoken
And all secrets revealed
Because of a broken seal

Weaknesses naked, ready to strike upon
Opened, stripped from shelter
Vulnerable and insecure
Afraid to endure
You soul exhumed and uncovered
For all eyes to examine and read

Strike
Take it all back
Cover your secrets
Lock your fortune
Make yourself safe and seek the shelter
Enclose all and never abandon your guard
Tighten your lock and strengthen your hold
For there is nothing more precious than your casket of gold
The casket of your soul